I can’t remember which day it was but it was two or three days before my exams started. My breakdowns were getting more frequent? I mean, i hadn’t noticed. Japheth noticed it. I only realized when i broke down 3 days in a row, then i started getting afraid i was slipping into depression relapse. It was that day and i’d spent the late afternoon in tears, and i’d lashed out at Japh over a ridiculous issue and i drove over to his place to apologize. I had a bit of a runny nose and took medication…i waited 2 hours but it didn’t kick in so i thought it would be okay to drive. Don’t know what i was thinking. Japh was pulling me in on the cold, tiled seats and i was curled into a ball and we were laughing about something before he asked me if i was tired/okay to drive home. I said i was okay, and so i left.
15 minutes later, i was almost home but i was drifting in and out of consciousness on the highway. Last thing i remember was wanting to pull over at the side to rest/take a nap/at least to wake myself up a little. But then i felt my car slam against the highway barrier, I jerked awake and swerved immediately. I was so scared i called Japheth and started to cry. All the cars were whizzing past me on the highway and a line was already forming on the first lane because i was stuck there. My phone was dying, my mom was out drinking and my dad was so useless when i called him it didn’t even matter anymore. Everyone was appalled at the fact i came out uninjured and with minor damage to my car. It’s like God was watching over me or something. I fell asleep just as i was coming out of a rather sharp curve on the highway, and i was going at nearly 100km/h. If i’d fallen asleep 1 or 2 seconds earlier, i would’ve collided head-first into the curve instead of on my right length - into the barrier. Probably be in the hospital now. I busted my front tyre and slowly rolled to the road shoulder. And then i was dearly blessed with a motorist who took a loop back on the highway on his bike so make sure i was okay (he saw me crash). He helped me change my tyre so i could get home.
Adam was saying i’ve used up 3 out of my 9 cat lives haha. And Japheth made me call my social worker the day after i broke down again. It helped a lot. I guess i might be going for regular counseling…but Ry and Tes were saying i might get better with the stress-relief after exams, and my Phuket trip with friends next week. So i’ll see then (: I’m glad exams are finally over! Gotten back 1 out of my 5 module results so far and it’s an A-. Missed the damned A by 2 marks. Sigh. I’m just really looking forward to working on my baking thing, meeting up with everyone i need to meet up with, and being able to go for Muay Thai trainings a lot more. Keeping myself busy~!!! Hope you girls have been a-okay too <3333 Lots of kisses xx.
Hi vannessa! I was wondering about the video you made, where do you edit them? & is it possible to use a dslr to film little snippets of videos (just like how you did) and eventually join them into one?
I use Final Cut! We got the software in Mass Comm. And yeah of course!!
Stop bringing yourself back to memories whether it was good or bad. Don’t drag conversations into blurry/more than friends areas if you’re still friends…and it’s always a little better if you stop contact for awhile just to collect yourself together. Occupy yourself with other things - new hobbies, old to-dos, school, work, friends, sports… Make a conscious effort to be happy <333 and time will do the rest i promise.
Time is passing so quickly and we’re going to be officially 2 months on Friday the 13th (haha mother of all jinxes be our relationship) or rather, we’ve had a thing for almost 5 months now. How has 5 months slipped through my fingertips?!?!?!? I can’t believe it. Can you believe it? And we still haven’t said ‘I-Love-You’. It is a little unusual for me to be going fast and slow at the same time. Or rather, it is unusual for me to be with someone who makes me a better person. Not because i want to please or earn brownie points, but because…i just did it somehow. I didn’t realize it at all but suddenly i am no longer being dragged down by someone else, or pulling someone else out of stuff, and i am just me. A me that is doing well in school, that has a healthier body image, that has stopped smoking (except for the occasional late nights with smokers), and a me that is laughing heartily again. I’ve forgotten what it feels like to crave for a cigarette. I am thankful with the days in and out that we are together, and then apart in our own worlds. I am thankful that you are always here to catch me. And to remind me that not everyone is going to disappoint, or leave me. Thank you for holding me when i weeped into my hands and instinctively knowing when i need to talk, and when i just need to be held.
It’s wonderful how you’ve become part of me, and i’ve become part of you.
How much are you paying for one lesson of muay Thai, and how long is it? Is it in a class or one to one? Would like to get more details before I sign up thank you!! :)
They don’t go by classes, it’s a pay amount for unlimited sessions. I signed up for a year and i got an additional month free because my brother referred me. It comes up to about 200ish monthly in my package? One class is an hour and you get to go for any classes - muay thai, bjj, mma, wrestling, yoga, fightshape… I’ve been with Evolve for about a month now and i’ve gone up to doing about 5-6 classes a week? (I’m usually waiting for my bruises to heal when i’m not there) Which is about 20 a month. Which leaves me with about 10 bucks per class haha. I’m thinking i’ll hit 10 classes a week soon which will then cut the rates per class even more.
where do you do muay thai? looking for a gym but places like evolve are so expensive! thanks :)
I go to Evolve! I agree its on the pricey side too but if you utilize the unlimited sessions properly it’s pretty alright i think. Like right now, i’m going for muay thai and yoga classes back to back on Tuesday and Thursday mornings. And i’ll fit whatever i can in on Fridays/part of weekends. I think i’ll be there more once i start bjj too.