I haven’t been here for awhile! I’ve been drifting in and out of being sick mostly. But i also attended the Effie Awards 2010 which was an eye-opener! I am sorry to anyone who follows me on Twitter because i spammed a little for that night haha.
I’d like to tumble more but i’m in over my head dealing with this fever that has been coming and going since last night. I need my bed now.
I’ve also been feeling very lost lately. I really dislike myself as of now.
“In your life you meet people. Some you never think about again. Some you wonder what happened to them. There are some that you wonder if they ever think about you. And then there are some you wish you never had to think about again; but you do.”—The Wonder Years (via poeticheartache) (via exclusivelyours)
You were in there for a little over 4 hours, and as they wheeled you out you were drugged up and groaning subconsciously from the pain. You called out again and again when they moved you into your bed. It broke my heart to see you this way.
You whispered hoarsely, telling me to respect others the way they’ve always respected me. And to never let another guy break me… Protect myself, because you know i can do it. Don’t let anyone else make use of me, because i deserve it. You uttered “I love you, friend. So please take care of yourself.” and tears slipped down the sides of your face.
I wiped them away and told you not to cry, and held your hand as you finally fell asleep. You were tired, they had done too much to you, and the extra morphine took a long while to kick in.
I hope the cotton that your sister & i stuffed into your ears helped block out some of the noise. You’re not alone, don’t be afraid. Ry & Eme are taking care of you now. You told me you were scared, you wouldn’t let me reach over to the table to get a damp towel to moisten your lips…but silly boy, you’re never alone. Even if it ever feels like it.
where did you meet jeff? sounds like you guys are going on sweetly :)
Um. Couple of years ago…bedok skate park?? HAHA then all of a sudden at Inquizzy’s debut. I got annoyed by some bitch constantly kicking me and left my friends to be alone near the front. And i turned around to look for other friends and lo and behold this boy was smack behind me!!!!!!!! Botak lah and more muscular. But recognisable. I screamed at him.
I still think it’s such a sleaze whenever i mention this…where did you meet Jeffrey? Oh i ran into him after a couple of years in a club…
Right. Haha but yeah we pretty much ignored everyone (for which i apologize) and sat down and talked and talked until the party ended.
I actually had a feeling i’d run into him there. My friend already warned me he was around because he went up to my friend and asked if i was coming or something. I guess i had mental preparation? Haha i was wondering if i’d be sad, or angry or depressed if i ran into him intially.
Have you gotten inked yet? I'm a friend of Mikael Co's, and I'm prettu sure his poem is titled "On the Necessity of Sadness". Hope you haven't had that tattoo done yet. Here's a link to his original post: http://abo-sa-dila.blogspot.com/2008/09/on-necessi
Hey, yeah!! I was googling for it and i saw Sadness & Longing and i was like….ok wtf. But i’ll be putting the last few lines of the entire poem so it wouldn’t affect it anyhow but thanks for the heads up!! Appreciate it (: